Where does the good go?

I am so ready to get my heart broken. I mean it, come at me people! iwanttobeabletowritesongsagain

(Had to take a picture of my face, since you know “look me in the eye and tell me...”

I just had to take a picture of my eye.

Today I made a folder with pictures of me. I haven’t had one in years. So why is that? Do I hate my face that much? Nope, here is the reason; I either look depressed or, when I try to smile, I look like an axe-murderer.

Seriously though, who could resist that face? I mean if you like being murdered I’m all yours, promise!

I don't do the "duck-face-pose" , I do the "pony-pose". Cuz I'm cool like that.

I am more excited than rebecca black on a Thursday night.

Yes, two posts in a row. Deal with it.

So I just finished watching another Torchwood episode, took a tiny break and went on the internet. So what did I find that’s exiting enough to bother to make another post at 03:14am? AMANDA FUCKING PALMER IN MAKING ANOTHER ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2012 might be, for me, the best year ever when it comes to new music. Here’s why: Birdeatsbaby is releasing a new album, which means tour. They’re from Brighton which means that there is a tiny possibility that I might be able to go and see them. Now, Now is releasing a new album. Tegan and Sara is recording and I think coming out with an album.  And Amanda Fucking Palmer is recording one. Words can not describe how exited I am.

Okay, I have to go back to Torchwood now. Only five episodes to go!

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.

Is the best word ever.

You know when you are all overexcited to talk to someone who loves something as much as you do yourself… like let’s say Harry Potter?

I was out having a beer with a friend and her friend the other day. We started talking about movies and how Breaking Dawn copied Deathly Hallows by being split up in two parts.

My friend’s friend said something about crying while seeing that movie, and I went all like
- “YESS! You too? I cried before it even started! And when Snape died! I felt like my heart would…”
Friend’s friend – “Wait… Snape? I thought we were talking about Twilight…”

*awkwardsilence*

I need to get some frames for my Tegan and Sara Get Along SIGNED posters. I feel like a bad fan. A really bad fan. I also need to get some wall space. My walls aren’t big enough :(

 

By the way, there will be a new Tegan and Sara album this year. MWIIIP!!!

I have the sex appeal of a decomposing goat.

I just read that on tumblr. It’s funny because it’s true.

It’s about 3.30 am and I’m like a scene from an American chick flick. I’m not dumped though. Not even crying. Just eating ice cream straight out of the package (bucket? container? I’m not sure), drinking tea, having this warm anti-stress-thing on my stomach and watching Get Along for the seventh time. I’m not complaining. Not at all. Oh, if every night/morning could be this peaceful… but soon the ice cream will be gone…

I am gross. What I’m I even doing with my life?

November 21, 2009

I just need to type this down or I’ll forget it. I just had the weirdest dream. Or it wasn’t weird as is weird but it was November 21, 2009 replayed in my head.

This was the day I saw Tegan and Sara for the first time. I could remember everything from me, picking out the clothes I was going to wear and the bus ride to the train to every single conversation.

I remember waiting outside the venue after the show, hoping to see Tegan and Sara, freezing my arse of together with a friend. The weird, drunk Irish guy that showed up and the two other girl, who we at first talked to in English until we realised that they were actually Swedish. Tegan and Sara’s German bus driver that talked to us for a very long time. We were talking about speaking German. (When I say “we were talking” I mean the others were talking and I was just standing there, listening). The Irish guy even asked me if I could understand English at all. My friend and one of the girl ran up the fire stairs and a light turned itself on, and my friend said “We didn’t do it“. Me missing my train, and the Irish guy said that I could sleep at his hotel room and my friend grabbed my arm and said “No she’s sleeping at my place!”

I remember us not remembering the name of “Soil, Soil“. And her reading her civics homework. And how I wished that I could go to Copenhagen to see Tegan and Sara again.

I don’t even know how I can remember all of this…

Speaking of Tegan and Sara…

Why? Why Tegan and Sara?! WHYYY!?!

Don’t Confess (this thing that breaks my heart)

I couldn’t sleep so I watched “Elf”. You know that Christmas movie with Will Ferrell where he believes he’s an elf and then meets Zooey “second-most-beautiful-pair-of-eyes-in-the-world” Deschanel. Oh how I don’t like Christmas movies, but this is one exception, I mean it’s Zooey “second-most-beautiful-pair-of-eyes-in-the-world” Deschanel (I just wanted to write that twice tihihi). Anyway… I can’t remember what I was going to write now, too busy remembering Zooey “second-most-beautiful-pair-of-eyes-in-the-world” Deschanel. It’s like supercalifragilisticexpialidocious…

Christmas movies makes me think… a lot, about Christmas and stuff. I don’t like Christmas too much. It’s all about getting presents and stress and not at all Christmas-y like in the movies. I just think about all the people that can’t be with their family, or don’t want to be but have to be. Not fair. What also isn’t fair is that I never get what I want for Christmas… which is a pony (no it’s not, but you never get what you with for if you say it out loud). I don’t want people buying me stuff. It shouldn’t be Christmas presents instead it should be Christmas hugs or something.

DAMN I’m cheesy when I’m tired!!! Ew, disgusting.

Btw, did you know that Zooey “second-most-beautiful-pair-of-eyes-in-the-world” Deschanel and that woman from Bones are sisters?! I had no idea.

Boys, boys, boys and Tegan and Sara<3

How fun isn’t it when your teacher says “Alright boys let’s get started!”? That’s what get for being the only girl in the class. I don’t mind though. What I do mind if when people ask about what it’s like to be gay (which totally happened today). I’ll tell you what it’s like to be gay; it’s fucking awesome. But seriously, what’s up  with that? Stop it! I don’t really care about stupid questions like that. I think everyone should do what I do, stare blankly at anything but the person, or say something “DAMN this is weird shit!” And when the person asks what just say “Oh nothing…” and walk away. Or say “I FUCKING LOVE THE TEGAN AND SARA GET ALONG DVD TRAILERS!!!!!!!!!”

Since I did that all Amanda Palmer is a goddess thing I just have to add that Tegan and Sara kind of changed my life. Or the person who made (like kind of forced me) to listen to them. I didn’t even like them before, the video to “Back in your head” scared me. First time I saw it on MTV back in 2007 I turned the TV off. That’s how much it scared me. But then I heard “Living Room” and I fell in love. If it wasn’t for Tegan and Sara (and a little bit that person I mentioned) I wouldn’t have bought that acoustic guitar and I never would have started singing and never ever in my life (probably) preformed. “Fix you up” was the first song I played live and Call me off was the second. Okay, I’ve played live many times, possibly over 100. In school but mostly with my marching band, I played the trumpet. Back to TnS. If it weren’t for them I wouldn’t have met most of my friends and I would never had gone to London. So yeah, I love Tegan and Sara.

Tegan and get along.

This could be so much fun! I mean I like Tegan and Sara and I like Disney! I mean best idea! Like Tegan and Mulan or Mickey Mouse and Sara! Lady and Sara or even better Tegan and the Tramp! (I’m having so much fun with this. I shouldn’t be allowed to be alone at 2 am.)

No idea what I’m talking about? Watch this!

It’s not even that funny. In my head it’s that funny. It’s 2 am and I haven’t slept for 48 hours. OMG why am I awake? OMG why does Tegan look better than everyone else on this planet? WHY!? It’s isn’t fair. Not even a little bit. I need sleep. I want to go back to playing Sonic the Hedgehog on Wii. Bought that two days ago. It’s fun. I’m going to bed now. Well, I’m already in bed. Goodnight! #pointlesspostispointless

Tegan And Sara.

I like them. A lot.

Ouch.

Feels like someone is throwing bricks at my head. Ouch! Stop it!

All I want to do now is sleep. Sleep for a very long time. But no, what I’m I doing? I’m doing math. OMG PEOPLE DON’T PANIC THIS PERSON CAN STUDY TOO YOU KNOW! I don’t like math, mostly because I suck at it. I blame it on my head, my head is slow. Aaaaand the fact that I haven’t been doing math in let’s say two years. I feel a bit behind. Who needs to now this stuff anyway? Okay, maybe some of it could come at use when you work with web design (which is what I want to do) but seriously, if I become a rockstar, all this time spent on doing math… a bloody waste of time! I could be writing songs and stuff instead!

My head is dying but my heart is dancing. Just ordered the Tegan and Sara Get Along Deluxe Package. So exited!

The few seconds they played Call It Of in the trailer gave me chills. Call It Of always does that to me. And I cry. Every time… ‘cus I’m cool like that (you couldn’t see that coming could you?)

Also, a little funny thing. People keep saying that I look like Lisbeth Salander. I mean have you even seen her?! Are you blind?! JUST LOOK AT HER!

She’s like super cool and though and stuff like that! I, however, am the least cool and most faint-hearted person I know! And she like looks… whaaaa! and I look like a loser haha! So just stop it you guys! Stop it.